I’m No Longer Keeping Quiet…
The hummus is passed around the Shabbat table. I am surrounded by friends and acquaintances speaking about the…
My Strategy for Avoiding Drowning in Stress
I am drowning in stress. The alarm clock goes off before the morning sun peers into the room. My mind is immediately flooded with…
The Mean Voice Inside Me
As I said the bedtime Shema, I recited the familiar passage, “For you have acted truthfully, and…
G-d Said ‘Yes’ to My Prayer
I stood in the synagogue with my friends last Rosh Hashanah, swaying in deep concentration and harmony. We each…
How Do I Get My Husband to Take Out the Trash?
I do everything around the house. It feels unfair. No matter how many times I ask my husband to help out, he doesn’t, and then…
My Husband’s Holy Work? The Battle Against Depression
I climbed the stairs to my home, exhausted after a session with a group of young adults on a Birthright Israel trip. Satisfaction filled…
‘Did You Give Up on Having a Child?’
My talk about my fertility journey was winding down, and it was time for the more intimate questions and…
Wanting Love and Approval, and Learning I Didn’t Need It
I rehearsed my notes for the upcoming CTeen Shabbaton. Would the students like my message? More importantly, would they…
Why I Won’t Micromanage My Husband
After I placed our wedding photos into an album and started playing house, I found myself saying things like…
Playing Volleyball With Shameful, Hurtful Words
The softly sung niggunim lifted the mood of a windy, bone-chilling evening. Our home was warmed by…
My Greatest Need: Praying to Find a Clean Sock
My early-morning routine of turning my entire home upside down while running late to find a clean sock turned into a…
Why Joy Feels So Scary, and What You Can Do About It
Research professor, lecturer and author Brene Brown did extensive research on emotions. She found the emotion people are…
Doing Heavy Push-Ups in the Middle of My Prayers
The sound of the cantor’s voice echoes off the walls. It is still drizzling outside on this Shabbat morning. I sway in harmony with…
People Can Be So Insensitive
Later, at home, I was playing out ways I could have spun that conversation differently. I was reliving hundreds of other…
How Can I Praise G-d for Things I Haven’t Been Blessed With?
Curled up in a ball, shivering. I was trapped in the ice-cold world of jealousy. Every friend’s and stranger’s growing baby bump…
What My Failed Fertility Treatment Taught Me
The last two weeks, I lay awake worrying whether I would be told once again that you slipped through my fingers, or in…
My Husband Is Ruining Our Lives: A Therapy Session
Everyone always told me I had so much potential and could really be something. When they would say that, I imagined…
Can My Life Be Perfect Even Without a Child?
Three months ago, I was lying down when I got the call from my doctor. Every last piece of paperwork, injection, anesthesia, procedure, waiting-room marathon that I’d…
Fighting the Pre-Shabbat Madness
I wipe down the counter, waiting for the pre-Shabbat madness fight. Somewhere, in the crunch time before candle-lighting, there’s usually a…
My Husband, My Warrior
How can I trust that we can play this game called “normal life” when just one breath ago, just one week ago, I thought this was…